I haven’t posted for 2 days now, but the great thing is that I do not have to apologize to anybody. I was swamped with work, and the couple of hours I could relax, I chose to do so. I did write a lot during my absence. It was all work related. I am currently working on two big projects one which is reaching go-live date. And many of us know what that means…

I have been on many projects and I know the drill. But I do experience them today with a different state of mind. I’ve grown. In working experience, skills (just repeating it often enough to know what comes next), but I consider my biggest growth to be spiritual. Not in the sense that I am floating between the stars all day, but I am way more relaxed. Even when shit hits the fan, I take the perspective of “what does this teaches me…about me!?”. It is pure selfish behavior, and I like it. More people should do it. First attend to yourself, and when you feel good about yourself let’s meet. You might actually have something to ‘give’ me.

As I wrote earlier I am more and more an observer. I try to observe with appreciation, which empowers me to see the bigger picture. This helps me when the pressure is on, and I deliberately do not join the blame game. With a more clear mind I see opportunities and it enables me to be more productive. But I am not in that appreciative state of mind all the time. At times, I also lose the connection with me, and I fall down the rabbit hole of frustration. But more and more I can step back and observe myself and ask “what does this teaches me…about me!?”.

Originally posted here: http://300words.posterous.com/swamped-with-work

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After about 5 minutes I looked at everybody in the meeting one by one, and they were all withdrawn in their own little – or big – world. The movement of lips did produce sound waves travelling across the room, but they never reached their destination. Not because they did not reach the physical point in space where they could be translated to meaningful brain waves, but because the door to the brain was closed.

As the observer I was fully receiving any wave pattern send out by the others. My brain translated them into meaningful words and body language. It was the world upside down. The so-called listeners did the talking, not speaking any word, not hearing any words. The body language did all the talking. The one speaking did not pay attention if his words were received and to the body language that was spoken. Useless communication. But not for the observer. Not for me.

As the meeting progressed and the agenda items passed by the only thing which was actually moving was time. The speakers started to turn their attention to me, hoping to find acknowledgement for what they were saying. They hit a dead end. I was the observer and I was not tempted to give them a sign of approval. I just looked. Observed. Solely enjoying the experience.

As the meeting came to an end, it was as they ran out of words. Some opened their mouth to say something, but decided it was of no use. There were plenty of opportunities to reply verbally with some meaningful comments, but I chose not to.

What is the use of talking when nobody listens.

Orginally posted here: http://300words.posterous.com/why-talk-when-nobody-listens

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