The human race loves the blame game. Something or someone has to be blamed for the shadows in us. For centuries we had the devil to blame. The red guy with the two pointy horns and the tail with an arrow-shaped tip. He represented our dark side, and for many of us still does. With the upcoming discovery of our true Self we realized the horny red man actually does not really exist. But if we can not blame him, who will represent our shadows, our dark side? As god and the devil are true opposites it is evident we need something that is the opposite of our higher self. Well, that is easy: our lower self. Or even better: our local self, the ego. » Read the rest of this entry «
Stop bashing your ego!
June 18th, 2010 § 1 comment § permalink
Upgraded to WordPress 3.0
June 17th, 2010 § 0 comments § permalink
I have upgraded my blog to WordPress 3.0 (from 2.9.2). Everything seems to work just fine, but if you see any strange behavior, let me know in the comments.
That’s it. :).
P.
Swamped with work
June 17th, 2010 § 3 comments § permalink
I haven’t posted for 2 days now, but the great thing is that I do not have to apologize to anybody. I was swamped with work, and the couple of hours I could relax, I chose to do so. I did write a lot during my absence. It was all work related. I am currently working on two big projects one which is reaching go-live date. And many of us know what that means…
I have been on many projects and I know the drill. But I do experience them today with a different state of mind. I’ve grown. In working experience, skills (just repeating it often enough to know what comes next), but I consider my biggest growth to be spiritual. Not in the sense that I am floating between the stars all day, but I am way more relaxed. Even when shit hits the fan, I take the perspective of “what does this teaches me…about me!?”. It is pure selfish behavior, and I like it. More people should do it. First attend to yourself, and when you feel good about yourself let’s meet. You might actually have something to ‘give’ me.
As I wrote earlier I am more and more an observer. I try to observe with appreciation, which empowers me to see the bigger picture. This helps me when the pressure is on, and I deliberately do not join the blame game. With a more clear mind I see opportunities and it enables me to be more productive. But I am not in that appreciative state of mind all the time. At times, I also lose the connection with me, and I fall down the rabbit hole of frustration. But more and more I can step back and observe myself and ask “what does this teaches me…about me!?”.
Originally posted here: http://300words.posterous.com/swamped-with-work
Why talk when nobody listens?
June 14th, 2010 § 1 comment § permalink
Today I was playing the observer in an otherwise useless meeting. Not so much useless because of the topics discussed, but because of the attitude – state of mind – people were in.
After about 5 minutes I looked at everybody in the meeting one by one, and they were all withdrawn in their own little – or big – world. The movement of lips did produce sound waves travelling across the room, but they never reached their destination. Not because they did not reach the physical point in space where they could be translated to meaningful brain waves, but because the door to the brain was closed. » Read the rest of this entry «
My work is done
June 14th, 2010 § 2 comments § permalink
I grew up near the coast. The sand dunes, beach and sea were only 10 minutes away from home. It’s true that you appreciate those things more and more when they are not so close anymore. I was able to jump on my bike and ride to the beach for no apparent reason other then pure joy and experience the mighty and powerful sea banging into the wet sand trying to win back the lost grounds. The ever present wind clearing my worried mind and the salty smell clearing my nostrils. » Read the rest of this entry «
I am God
June 12th, 2010 § 1 comment § permalink
When man started to talk about God in the third person – I do not know if man ever did otherwise -, the connection with the higher Self was lost and the knowing that man is the creator of it’s own life turned to a suffocating believe system that their is a master of puppets controlling every bit of their life.
You can get on your knees and beg the big master not to cut your string, but there is no guarantee. He has a masterplan, and if you play by his rules you can play a glorious part filled with abundance and happiness. But if you are a sinner… » Read the rest of this entry «
They changed the title!
June 11th, 2010 § 0 comments § permalink
I am treating myself to a barcardi-coke. Probably more then one.
I got my first (work-related) article published in a Dutch magazine about Oracle products. The article describes the success factors of implementing the packaged software solution Oracle Siebel CRM. It is written from my personal experience of 13 years of IT and it turned out pretty good. I changed jobs April 1st 2010 and my new employer, which is focused on the Dutch market wanted more exposure and asked me to write an article. I had never done this before, and frankly never had the desire to do so. I am not much of a reader, except for the countless pages of architecture and design documents, and the multitude of 300 words I read as a result of my commitment to this initiative. » Read the rest of this entry «
My journey
June 10th, 2010 § 1 comment § permalink
I used to be an extreme black & white thinker. All or nothing. Life, then death. Nothing.
At the time it seemed to be an easy way of living life. Everything was random. Nothing happened for a reason. I could not be blamed for anything that I experienced.
Humans were born evil, and some turned into loving human beings. Naïve creatures. » Read the rest of this entry «
On my way to my shadows
June 10th, 2010 § 0 comments § permalink
So here I am. Committed to write 300 words every single day. But why? Is it because @gapingvoid is one of the initiators? I do like his drawings, especially the ones where ’The blue monster’ expresses the wisdom of Hugh. Or is it because of @MartijnLinssen who joined almost instantly? Our paths crossed each other again on Twitter. I enjoy his blog and his outspoken perspective on life in general. I have to admit they both influence me in a positive way, but not to the extend that I follow them in everything they do.I am also not doing it because I’m a professional writer or aspiring to be one. I only write on my blog when I’m really inspired and the words flow naturally from my mind onto the screen. But I can assure you that it’s not every day that I bask in true enlightenment.
I have no financial benefit from joining this @300words initiative. In the perspective of ‘time is money’ I’m actually paying to write at least 300 words-a-day.
I’m even risking my life to get my first 300 words out there as I am driving and typing simultaneously. So, it could be my last 300 words.
The real reason I committed to this initiative is because it’s fun and it will learn me so much more about myself. What will I write about when I’m not inspired? Will I have the guts to share my personal frustrations which tend to be more dominant when I am not inspired. I do have a real dark side as any of you, but I have trained myself not to focus too much on it. But lately I’m more then ever ready to investigate this part of me with a playful intention and shine some light on my dark side. My shadows.
Originally posted at: http://300words.posterous.com/on-my-way-to-my-shadows
300 Words a day
June 10th, 2010 § 0 comments § permalink
Two days ago I committed to an initiative to write 300 words per day. It’s a great idea and I am happy I did. To keep track of my daily 300 I will post them also on this blog under a dedicated category brilliantly named: 300words. If you feel challenged, or just feel the joy of it, don’t hesitate, signup and and become a contributor.
Happy reading.